So fast forward 2 1/2 months post losing baby. I have gone back to work (thank God!), I have lost 18 lbs, and I have already gone back to the doctor to determine my ultimate risk in getting pregnant again. Because of how my last pregnancy failed, I can be more prepared for a future pregnancy.
I met Dr. Feldman on Tuesday this week, he works for Bayfront OB Group in St. Petersburg. I was nervous to the point that my blood pressure was super high. I think about my baby and failed pregnancy on the daily for sure, but I was terrified of just an answer of NO from this man I have never met. I went into this office prepared for the worst and hoping for the best. My records didn't get sent from my previous OB, but this doctor was phenomenal anyway. I had to bring him up to speed with what I have gone through this year until he can get his hands on my actual OB and hospital records. Every question I had was answered, and some of those answers were not what I would expect them to be. My two biggest concerns were the risk of not being to make it full term again, and also being stuck in bed on bed rest. Dr. Feldman told me that as soon as I get pregnant again I need to establish with an OB right away. I will end up being followed similarly to the way I was when they realized my cervix was insufficient. I will get progesterone shots and a possible cervical cerclage. We also discussed the possibility that this was all just a freak thing that could have happened due to the numerous times I fell while I was pregnant. While a small possibility, it is certainly still something to consider since this was my first failed pregnancy. He told me that bed rest isn't even clinically proven to help with cervical insufficiency, which was a relief because I am a total busy body. I left his office that Tuesday with so much more hope than when I got there. Maybe I CAN do this, maybe I CAN have a biological child in my 30's with this all against me. Right now in 2018 there is no 100% guarantee that the progesterone or the cerclage will work. There have been no other ways to help my condition that have been presented to me by an OB, nor that I have found with my endless amounts of online research. I know that mentally and physically I have handled my babies loss very well. I do not even feel afraid to try again. I think that will all change the moment I find out I am expecting again, but I hope not. All I can hope for is that I continue to stand up against this problem, and just overcome it all. I realize that I cannot fix my anatomy, but I can at least try to not allow it to dictate my fertility nor destroy my life in general. Dr. Feldman told me that afternoon that his practice routinely checks for cervical insufficiency. It made my heart feel so happy. Maybe if I had been routinely checked by my OB, I wouldn't have lost my baby boy. Maybe this was supposed to happen to me so I could raise awareness to other women, and help prevent them from losing their child. So many unknowns at this point in my life, so many maybes, but still there is hope.
I met Dr. Feldman on Tuesday this week, he works for Bayfront OB Group in St. Petersburg. I was nervous to the point that my blood pressure was super high. I think about my baby and failed pregnancy on the daily for sure, but I was terrified of just an answer of NO from this man I have never met. I went into this office prepared for the worst and hoping for the best. My records didn't get sent from my previous OB, but this doctor was phenomenal anyway. I had to bring him up to speed with what I have gone through this year until he can get his hands on my actual OB and hospital records. Every question I had was answered, and some of those answers were not what I would expect them to be. My two biggest concerns were the risk of not being to make it full term again, and also being stuck in bed on bed rest. Dr. Feldman told me that as soon as I get pregnant again I need to establish with an OB right away. I will end up being followed similarly to the way I was when they realized my cervix was insufficient. I will get progesterone shots and a possible cervical cerclage. We also discussed the possibility that this was all just a freak thing that could have happened due to the numerous times I fell while I was pregnant. While a small possibility, it is certainly still something to consider since this was my first failed pregnancy. He told me that bed rest isn't even clinically proven to help with cervical insufficiency, which was a relief because I am a total busy body. I left his office that Tuesday with so much more hope than when I got there. Maybe I CAN do this, maybe I CAN have a biological child in my 30's with this all against me. Right now in 2018 there is no 100% guarantee that the progesterone or the cerclage will work. There have been no other ways to help my condition that have been presented to me by an OB, nor that I have found with my endless amounts of online research. I know that mentally and physically I have handled my babies loss very well. I do not even feel afraid to try again. I think that will all change the moment I find out I am expecting again, but I hope not. All I can hope for is that I continue to stand up against this problem, and just overcome it all. I realize that I cannot fix my anatomy, but I can at least try to not allow it to dictate my fertility nor destroy my life in general. Dr. Feldman told me that afternoon that his practice routinely checks for cervical insufficiency. It made my heart feel so happy. Maybe if I had been routinely checked by my OB, I wouldn't have lost my baby boy. Maybe this was supposed to happen to me so I could raise awareness to other women, and help prevent them from losing their child. So many unknowns at this point in my life, so many maybes, but still there is hope.
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