Its been a bit since I spilled my heart to this little blog <3 It has been 6 months since I was in the hospital losing my baby boy. My due date came and went. I sat at the bar with my best friend in the world, and drank Tito's and soda that day. My preferred method of sedation when I am going through something deep :) Around the holidays I often thought about how it would have been if my baby was here. I was going to have my first Christmas with my own little family, but that was not part of the master plan, apparently. I try not to think like that, but sometimes you cannot help it. When you are lost in all of your thoughts, its easy to go there. Someone told me a few months ago that they felt like I had not grieved yet. This statement did not surprise me at all, because of how I just picked up my life where I left off, and started moving forward. I have grieved my child for months now, but I am also actively trying to keep myself together. I have lost some very close peopl...